Borderline, bulimia, depression?

ok first of all, take a deep breath. im not quite sure how old you are but my guess is about my age. i have the same diagnosis as you pretty much. just not bulimic anymore. the part where you said you leave before you get left. i was the SAME way. when things were going great i started freaking out like a spiral down and ended it. i lost a bunch of great relaionships. i dont mean to crunch on your views but sweetie. read what you said. "i almost expect people to leave me because of the way i act. i can be very horrible which i hate. My view is leave or be left, i expect people to eventually see what i am really like and leave me so i do it before they can get the chance." thats expecting abandonment. as you said. you dont want the full flat out version so you end it. i have the same issue. you , in your mind, think that if you end it they are not abandoning you. but , you abandon them? its not your fault about the mood swings hunnie. yeah you wish you wouldnt have them but lets face it its going to happen happy or not. look. i dont know your past or your current present but if you would like to talk more i would definately not mind. if you have read my past questions on here i was in the same boat.. ok similar boat. i want to keep talking to you sweetheart. jsut so you have someone to relate to a little bit. because i know what its like not having anyone at all to call when your not sure what to do or crying uncontrollably. im here to talk to you when ever your needing it. roro_mstm2007@yahoo.com.. name is rochelle.