I have on hell of a problem on my hands?

I was married for 4 years to a woman I married for selfish reasons. I thought she was beautiful and hot, but it didnt matter, i couldnt get turned on by her like I did my stills of women, who are my real lovers, I dont really desire her unless i look directly at her p****, or her a**.. She does have some imperfections, and she is in her early 40's. Overall, a nice package. I was a virgin at 32, she was newly divorced, and we had , she wanted to see if she could have a one nighter, but somehow, it turned out way different. I was happy with my way of life(i think) i had to get off to, real women talk too much, and i could be** off whenever I wanted to, do what i wanted, w/o someone on my a**. I realized very quickly that i only married her to have a real pu*** around when I was bored with the other. I wanted rid of her almost as soon as I realized she was going to get in the way of the life that i liked. I started treating her like sh**, hoping she would get out, but things