I called and apologized !! help ?

i finally called that guy i was nagging about but the conversation didn't go as i planned , i tried apologizing & telling him that i didn't approach him the first day because i was still mad at how everything turned out .. he didn't seem too eager to hear from me . i asked if all the avoiding eachother stuff bothered him he said no i was like well it bothers me .. he said he doesn't like it but it doesn't bother him "thats just us not talking". i feel like a stupid *** for even calling & letting my guard down to apologize. i was explaining myself & i didn't get the response i needed i guess he doesn't care but he said he was going to the bank & that he'd talk to me later but ui really doubt it .. i feel like the best way to make myself feel better about this is just to think that at least i don't have to wonder what if i never called in the first place .. you know ? you think he'll call or text me later ? i feel so stupid i just need to know what could possibly happen next & possibly some comfort would help =\ thanks !